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Oct. 11th, 2008

So Happy Together

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Sep. 23rd, 2008

So Happy Together

3 Years

It all started with this post 3 years ago.

"I really don’t know what to write about this past weekend.  I can say this, it was far more than I ever expected.  I don’t know what I initially thought would happen between MrImp and I, and maybe its best that I keep most the details to myself.  What I will see is that I like him a lot.  He is kind, sweet, a perfect kisser, cuddlicious, a gentleman, a clothes whore, a shoe-aholic, snazzy dresser, generous, easy to talk to, a good walker, damned hard to beat at Marvel Vs Capcom 2 (kicked my ass!!!), not as good at King of Fighters (kicked his ass!!!), looks great handcuffed to a pole, looks so damned cute when he wakes up, passionate, ardent, overly nice to crazy stalker types (he knows who I’m talking about), adventurous, appreciates fine quality men, winks at me a lot, takes good pictures (so I hear ;), is easily annoyed by his dad tells him his laundry is done, likes Seattle, hates Atlanta, has a good mind, strange taste in food (duck! And orange sesame parfait in a grape concord soup topped with a grape sorbet, :p ), meets people from Michigan wherever he goes, washes your hair for you and dries it!!!, tastes good, and overall the best time I’ve ever had at Folsom.  That’s all I think I need to say. "

And it's still true...all of it...and more.

There's somethings you just have to put in words. 

I'm still very much in love with Eric Arthur Engler, and I will probably will be for the rest of my life.  I don't think anything I can say will do justice to the love that we've found together, but I'm going to try.

I had been hurt by someone in my past, and I seriously didn't think  would ever get past it.  After so many failed attempts at a love life and a long distance relationship that had broken off after two years, I had come to a place in myself where I accepted that I was okay if I didn't spend the rest of my life with someone.  Don't get me wrong, I would not have been happy about it, but I'd be content, and then I met Eric.

We dated long distance but after only four months he told me "One of us is going to have to move, and it's not going to be me."  That was hard for me.  I'd lived in California for 22 years and after only knowing this man four months, he wanted me to move 2500 miles away and start my life entirely over.  I had 2 friends there, no job and no idea what Michigan was going to be like if I moved to the Midwest.  I'm a person of creature comforts, long-standing habits, and a stubborn streak a mile wide.   I had tried traveling for love or the misplaced concept of what might become love after passionate sex and hot chemistry before, and that had led only to heartache.  Yet, here I was waking up at all hours of the night with panic attacks over a boy in Michigan.

One day, I was at my desk at work, just plugging away at meaningless documents, brooding over moving to Michigan or trying to force him to come here.  I swear this next part to be true, a voice not my own said to me "Quit fucking around and move to Detroit!" And with that it felt like a pink energetic arm shot itself up my spine.  Some people call it the Kundalini effect, but this was the first time in my life that the Universe had ever asserted itself into my life.  Most times, it nudged, whispered, or gave me a brief glimpse of the way things should be.  But this was something more.  I called Eric less than a minute after and told him I was moving to Michigan.  He asked me if I was sure, but it's hard to explain to someone else that the Universe just threatened to pull the car over and reach back and slap you, if you didn't listen.  So I told him I was and we made our plans to move me to the Midwest. 

Two months later, we packed up my car, drove 2500 miles through hell and bible belts, all the while listening repeatedly to the soundtrack of "WICKED", and settled in together.

Living with Eric is a whole lot different than loving Eric.  He's not the easiest person to get along with, he's particular, you hear a lot of  "Didn't your mother teach you anything" and "That's not the way mother would do it." Those two phrases will always be first and foremost in my mind when folding laundry or putting away the dishes.  He's cranky when he wakes up too early, hates being told what to do, and despises when you criticize his choices.  I know that all these things apply to me as well, but since I'm the one writing this, I'll forego my flaws, so that he can post about them.

But in truth, I forget all of the things that annoy me about him, and I remember.  I remember how he smiles, and how it makes me feel inside.  I remember that each and everyday, I never have to wonder if he'll tell me he loves me.  I always get as many kisses and hugs I want.  He tells me I am beautiful, and that I have the prettiest blue eyes.  My fuzzy red tummy makes him happy, and we rub our bellies together.  He always makes sure that I have money for comic books and that I get to go to Cafe' Muse and order the same thing I do everytime we go there.  I remember that he has the most charming roguish smile, and that when he kisses me, they are the best kisses I've ever had.  When we sleep together, I am held each and every night, and we fit perfectly into each other when we snuggle.  I remember how beautiful he is when he sleeps.  I remember him waking me up after I hit him while sleeping.  I was dreaming someone was trying to hurt him, and I was beating them up.  I remember that even though he was 2500 miles away, I couldn't think of being anywhere else but with him.  I remember that he asked my mom for permission to marry me, before he ever asked me to marry him.  I remember, and hope to remember all these things all of my life.  Because most of all, I can't imagine my life without him.  His laugh, his smile, his sense of humor, the way he feels, touches, kisses me are so entwined in love I could and would never be able to undo all of the things he's made better about me.  He's made me love, laugh and live much more than I ever thought I would.  Life changed for me after I met him.  Life changed for the better. And after 3 years, it's still getting better everyday.

I love you Eric Arthur Engler, with all my heart.  Happy Anniversary Little Bear!!!

Aug. 19th, 2007

So Happy Together

Diamond in the sky

Well as you can see from the picture below, there's a ring involved. 
Last night Eric Arthur Engler asked me to marry him, and I said yes.
Actually I said nothing for the first minute I was so shocked, stunned and awed.
Then I said,
We had already been planning to get married, but that was in the future, totally unexpected but totally warranted.  He brought the ring out with the help of our ottter puppet Archie.  He's all "Archie's got something for you." So I hold my hand out totally not having any idea of what he's got in his mouth and out pops this ring.  I'm looking at it, thinking 'What's this all about?'  Then he gets down on one knee and asks me "Will you make the happiest man in the world?" Well that would be impossible, as I'm the happiest man in the world right now.  But of course that's a flash thought that's stuck in my head and I can't even make my mouth move I'm so stunned.  He asked my mom for her blessing and she gave it (I knew she would.  She loves him like her third son.).  So yes, I said Yes, and it's a beautiful ring as you can see below.  Apparently everyone else knew but me.  Now those are the kind of surprises I like.  It's a beautiful Sunday morning, and you know what? I'm still smiling.  Good morning world :D

Apr. 25th, 2007

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Apr. 23rd, 2007

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Nov. 24th, 2006

So Happy Together

Long Overdue



Well since I don't write OFTEN, I guess I should fill you all in on what's been going on with me. So for the past few months I've been working at LaSalle Bank in Troy, MI on a MAJOR compliance project. Well that ended a week ago today. I had a lot of fun there, and made my first real "new" friend there, Miss Abigail Pussyswallow McKracken. Actually her name is really just Abby Addy, and she's a wonderful gal. Hard drinking, smoking, gossiping girl a fag can hang out with and feel right at home with. She also seems to be Eric's long lost sister he never new he had, because the shop, think, and gossip alike about the people at work. We worked at the bank together on the project, and Eric and I have come to love her very much...That's why she moved to Chicago...actually it's because she got a job there. I really loved working there, and working with the people I did. Most of all of them were women, save Nate, the up and coming young gay man set out to do as all young gay men do, flirt and date disasters. I know I'm all over the place, but there's simply no way to capsulize all of the things that went on. The bank gave me a lot of interesting people to work with and of course one miserable bitch, Michelle, who had an imaginary boyfriend that she sometimes talked about, but was never seen out in public with...I thought it was junior high all over again.

Eric and I have been together a year and 2 months :D I can't tell you how much I love this man, and how thankful I am that we are in each other's lives. He really does compliment my life in so many ways. We're going strong, and loving our new little apartment in Royal Oak, MI. It's very contemporary and modern, with a homey feel. We play Magic the Gathering on our Ikea coffee table, and watch LOST, Battlestar Galactica, and Desperate Housewives on our little green couch from Bright Ideas. We make dinner ino our tiny ass kitchen, well we heat up the good stuff we get from Trader Joe's, which is OHHHH SO GOOD.

Now skipping other places, let me say, I miss my friends and family a lot. It's strange being in this strange new world of Michigan and sometimes I get angry and frustrated and don't know why. Until today, when I nearly broke down, because I realized I miss my mom alot. ALOT. She lives in Nevada, and it just hasn't been feasable time or money wise for us to go there, and it totally seems that no one will come to Michigan in the winter. What's the fucks up with that? I tell you, I came here in December, the rest of y'all can get your asses and deal with the cold too, we're definitely worth it.

This came up because we went over to Eric's Aunt Cheryl's house for dinner. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays, and to be without my family for so long is really hard on me. I got a chance to talk to my mom earlier in the day, and then my dad in the afternoon. So that was good and it made me feel better. I may be thousands of miles away but just getting to connect with them for a little bit, eased some of my missing them.

Now on to the food. Let me say, I ate two helpings of stuffing, turkey, and mashed potatoes. It was delicious, plus the cranberry dressing, sweet potatotes, spinach and artichoke souffle, and a piece of pumpkin pie as side dishes.

We played with Chloe and Carson, Eric's nieces and nephews. I made up a game we call Zombie Tag. If you really want to know how to play, let me know ;) Then we all sat around and nearly fell victim to triptephane, or however you spell the turkey drug. Once we skirted that near sleep, we ended up watching CARS. It was a very cute movie, which I liked, but reminded me a bit too much of "The Emperor's New Clothes". Though the last part of the movie at the drive-in was awesome!

Last in order, I have a new job. It's a full time, salaried position working for a company. I can't mention. It's a pilot position and depending on how well I can get this project off it's feet, it will roll out to the other states. I got paid Wednesday, and I only started Monday, I get three floating holidays that I have to use before the end of the year, and I don't have to work tomorrow. I think it's a pretty good job so far. Everyone there is really nice, and very helpful. We got some "family" in the house, and some cute, not quite hot, straight boys too.

So that's it folks, I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. I miss my CoH buddies, and will be making some appearances there very soon. Love to Divus, and Rubberlad, Mind Cloak, and Spackle and Vox, Tug Thumper, Cold Ops, and all my other friends out there. Big hugs to Reddy, Rocket, and Nipper. Big hugs to Aaron, Ryan, Adam, Adam, Brian, and Steve. :D Andy and Celtika and my hunny bunnies in CA... :D Mason, Anthro, Liam, Blu_Ghoti. :D Kisses all around.

Aug. 24th, 2006

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Apr. 30th, 2006

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Apr. 14th, 2006

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Just a little update to make the Gang (and Nipper) happy

Hey Gang,

Well I bet you're all thinking you'd never here from me again, well
wrong :D

Eric and I left on Saturday morning and drove straight on through to Las

Vegas, Nevada. We stopped in Bakersfield and had lunch. Then we drove
across the desert to Vegas. We met my mom at our hotel (the Westin),
then proceeded to grab some dinner at Paris. It wasn't very expensive
it wasn't all that good either, but it was alright. Mom loves Eric and
thinks he's very sweet. Eric liked Mom as well. So we actually ended
going to bed very early that night as we were very tired.

Sunday morning we forgot about the Spring Forward, and ended up in not
leaving the Vegas area until around noon. We had to stop by my Mom's
on the way out. So we got on the road, and headed south to Laughlin.
that it was across to Flagstaff, and a small sidetrip to Sedona, AZ.
is a scary hairy place to drive down and it takes quite a while. Once
got down, we looked around a bit, and headed back up. Got gas there, as
were nearly empty and headed out for Alburqurque, New Mexico. If there
is a
city I never want to go through again it's Gallup. It sucked.
for miles, and when we finally got on the road to head back, we got
around. 10 miles going the wrong direction we finally got an exit, but
it lead nowhere, not even back onto the freeway. Well we drove for a
turned around and went back to where we'd come, seems that there is a
it just isn't indicated in any signs. So drive back to Gallup and then
Alburqurque. Got in there about 12:30 am. Got on the road the next day
made our way across NM to Texas. We stopped just outside of Texas for
and gas, and I took over the driving.

Seems that in Texas, if you can't pay for the speeding ticket at the
it's written, they arrest you. So I drove 71 mph all the way across,
without stopping. Outside of Amarillo I had a cop follow me for about
miles, just hoping I'd do something wrong. Thank God for cruise
We didn't even stop for the world largest cross in the Western
There were lots of crucifixes that looked like they had been burned, so
didn't stop. Eric wasn't happy about that, but most of our friends
stopping would have been a bad idea.

We got into Oklahoma City around 8pm that night, and went out to dinner
their version of Chevy's called "On the Border". It was a nice relaxing

night, before we'd head across another scary state, Missouri.

Now Missouri is very pretty, but you get worried when you see all these
signs saying "JESUS" and "Reverse Vasectomy Surgery", you begin to
about the people in that state. There were also a lot of SUPER ADULT
BOOKSTORES, usually across the road from Churches. I think the scariest

place we stopped was at a Wendy's in Missouri. The people were all kinda

trashy, and one guy was even like "I don't own no checking account or
card." Eep!!!

Well we got to St. Louis and met up with Eric's friend Travis, who was a

doll. His boyfriend and he took us to Maggioni's a real Italian
where we ordered pasta and a couple appetizers. Let me just say, we
like 65 dollars for 4 but even the 4 of us couldn't finish everything on

I saw the Arch of the West from a distance. It's amazingly beautiful
surreal at the same time. I'll have to go back and look at it up close
sometime in the future.

The next day we headed out for home, and it was our last day driving.
headed up to Chicago, a traffic nightmare, and then onto Kalamazoo.
where his cousin Jeff lives with his wife Candy and their two kids, who
loved both Eric and I. There were very happy to see us, and gave us one
our best meals, a simple stir fry, but so much better than fast food.

We left there, and made it back into the area around 10 and picked up
car, and drove it back to where we are staying, Nick and Leda's. Well
was Wednesday and here it is Monday. Still no job, but I'm putting out
applications everyday. Spent some good times with friends this weekend.

Other than that not much is going on other than trying to figure out
the hell I am most of the time.

Okay that's all for now, but should have gotten you caught up.

I miss you all, big hugs from D-Town.


It's been over a week now, and still no job. Detroit job market is not the place I thought it would be. So if you've got pull here and want to help an otter get a job, let me know. :D

I can always send you my resume if you think you can help (Administrative, Clerical, Document Management, Data Entry)

OHHHHH!!! And, the best thing about living here, is that I get to be with Eric everyday :) and our cell phone bills aren't outrageous.

Mar. 10th, 2006

So Happy Together

just for Eric

Ganked from my friend adam and his friend


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